Here comes another 5 facts about me before i start blogging everything . There has been alot of things in my mind which made me feel super uncomfortable nowadays . I just hate the emotional me .
1) I hate goodbyes . Since young , everytime i go back to Indonesia , i'll be crying when i come back .
2) I can get really very emotional . Can also get really very childish .
3) I hate getting close to peepo . They will get out of my life sooner or later .
4) I get affected easily . Eg : I hate peepo being good to me especially when its guys because i tend to rely on them and end up i'll like them when i shouldn't .
5) Im harmless . I got no prevention towards peepo .
You'll never get well with me if you don't understand me . It's obvious . Im shy at first . But i'll show my true self when i think you can be trusted . Fyi , i trust peepo super easily . So if i can be the true self in front of you , it means i really trust you . But don't take it for granted . Because i trust easily , but if you betray my trust , you'll never get it back . I actually wanted to thank a few peepo that actually make me happy , make me grow up within this period of time after i broke up . Its going to be 8 months after he left me . And im trying to improve myself bit by bit . Making a brand new me . Trying to find what i exactly want .
First person , my mummy , my sis . I finally realise that the only person that will never leave me is family members . I neglected them when im in relationship . I throw tantrums at them , and stuff . But they never leave me alone . They cheer me up , they were there when i need them . Thankyou ♥ Words could never explain how grateful i am to have such awesome mother and sibling in my life . Words could never explain how much I love them .
2) My relatives from mother side . Im not close to father side but definitely super extreme close to mother side . They were more open minded and since young , i've been going back so our relationship is really very close . Especially with my cousins ♥ They gave me advises during that period of time , they make me feel like im good enough for someone else , they make me realise i should be appreciated . I have to thank them especially my cousins because they make my stay in Indonesia a wonderful one everytime i go back . They literally treat me as a sister , taking care of me although one of them is smaller than me . I couldn't express how thankful i was to have them in my life . When they will make me forget my problems everytime i go back , when they don't know what problems i have .
3) Friends . Peepo like Lerying , Shiting , Ruiwan , Jingwen , Seok teng , Shuqun , David , Jeffery , Ziwei , Adam , Felicia , Anderene , Stanley , Mel , Jacky , Bobby , Joaquin , Nowel, Drnest , Maria , Cheryl , Renea , Yiling , Munyee , Victoria . - Hopefully i didn't left anyone out - Im really very very very thankful for having them in my life . Oh ya , and some of the puddings i know this year in twitter . They were really sweet . I really have to thank them giving me advises , cheering me up . Meeting me when i really need a listening ear . Especially Lerying , my bestie for 3 years ♡ Some of the girls we were not even close till this year . They make me grow up , they make me realise im actually a fortunate girl because they might not be in my life everyday , every min , every hour , but when i need them , they were there for me . Some of them lended me their shoulders when i need . Some of them create new memories for me to remember and made me throw away some old memories that were torturing me . Some were there to help me making the first step to move on . They were delighted to know that I've moved on . Really have to say a big thankyou to them . - Huggies - My life will be in a mess without this group of friends . They make me know that im definitely not alone ♡
Lastly , him . I got sweet memories for that 8 months . Thanks for everything you've done . Thanks for making me grow . Indeed , every brakup has a reason . Every breakup is a lesson learnt . I've learnt alot , really alot . It's a brand new us , my only regret is to accept you . Or else we will still be friends now . Thank good care of her . God bless , hope you guys last forever (:
Im definitely a happygirl . A happygirl that manage to smile whenever i thought of memories and stuff . It's really a relief to let go . I no longer feel as tired as before . Im looking forward to 26 ♡ Cousins , they're finally coming ♡ I want to enjoy my last week before holiday ends . Im not going back Indonesia this year . Going Bangkok during Dec holidays . Will only see them on cny next year . It means i can see my zhabor cousin , peisha ♡ Cousins is the first few best friends you have when you're young ♡
Thank god the haze is gone . Or else i can't go wild wild wet with cousins on 27th . God bless , let the haze come back only after 29th .
Life has 4 simple letter yet so complicated . Love has 4 simple letters yet so confusing .
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