I just feel so confused myself . But it is true that there isn't real friend in the world isn't it ? Peepo are just being double-faced , treating you like a toy . When there are benefits , they'll stick to you . When there's no longer benefit , they will just go away . And then they will throw attitude as and when they like and start to bad mouth about you . And they basically start to backstab you . Let me just state it clear that im not a toy for anyone . Not a second choice , not a replacement .
So everything is going on successfully nowadays . Im getting things i want , feeling happier as holidays are coming and its really important for me to find job now so i can enjoy holiday with friends . Planning USS , bugis shopping and even wild wild wet with the girls . After cross country , something i'll be looking forward will be Bazaar . This year shall be an awesome one . Im going to go party around , its time to enjoy myself . And yeahh , its also time to pamper myself . Holidays will be enjoying , doing nails and time to shop , shop , shop ! Thinking if i should work in subway due to pay so yeahh .
Its the moment when i start to miss Bintan . I miss Indonesia , i miss my cousins . I miss being there when i don't have to worry about anything but just play and play and play . I miss the beach there . I miss how i feel there . Its too stressful in Singapore . I just want to be back there to have a good time with my two beloved cousins . There are times when i miss the past , the past when im way too close with my cousins . I miss the past when we're so close till they will come Singapore so often and they will even bother to help me ' attack ' my sis . It's the past , the age that we're so immature . It's the past , when we're so close . We are kinda still close , but things do drift . Im hoping that i can really relax myself this holiday . This is the time when i don't have to be so emotional like last year , when i have to tear just because i miss someone . Finally , its time to give myself a break from everything .
The past hurts , memories do flow back . But i've done my best , and things won't change . It's adapting , getting used to it makes me now . A brand new me , a brand new start . After knowing that the past couldn't change , i believe , its no longer worth to treat someone extreme well when they will just leave in the end .
But will be strong to overcome this again . I must be strong to overcome memories .
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