happy happy ^^

" It has been long tht i've not smile like a small girl "

It has been long i've not been happygirl98 ! Today , awesomme ♥ In sch , many things happen . Mayonnaise release us early for recess , drew graph successfully without Anderene's hlp :D And my mood did change alot also . I guess , in the end , i still cant let him go . I'll focus on EOY first den entertain those things bahh . 


I say tht i'll be happy . I say tht i'll prove to myself tht i can be a happygirl . Idk whether it could be true anot . But i'll try my best to make it true . He avoided me , avoid till i wun see him . Thanks for giving me this chance to forget u , thanks for this chance , proving tht we dun hav chance . And afterall , no matter how much hopes i hav , no matter how i tried , trying to hope for some miracles , i still hav to give up .躲避他的感覺很累，累得我想要好好地 ，靜靜地一個人在房間聽著我愛的歌休息 ，好好地休息，慢慢地習慣沒有他的日子。可是好難好難。我沒有辦法，也無法習慣。你的一举一动，你的笑声，你的幼稚行为，你的一切。想了就想笑，想了很想看。但是这是曾经，现在不会再发生了。这么难放弃。为什么呢？因为我已经习惯了你的存在。。。说要放手，有点舍不得。怎样也有3个月，暗恋着你。每天都有奇奇怪怪的东西发生。突然我的生活变得没有趣，还是很不习惯。只能说，我不能哭，我一定要坚强起来。这种事情常发生在我身上，习惯就好。


Until today , i finally understand the feeling of having ur bestie at ur side when u're really down , when u're gonna fall down anytime and they're ready to pick u up frm hurt . No matter wht happens , the only thing i can trust now , friends . Its time for me not to depend on others . If i continue like this , idk how hurt i will be in the end . Maybe its the time to make myself grow up and be independent . I cant forever depend on others . No one can let me depend on for life , no one is willing to let me depend on forever . If im brave enough to make myself change , if im brave enough to make my mood better , i hope tht reality will work with me . 

现在的我，只能尽量的变坚强，只能尽量让自己开心，不要去想酱多。我累了，崩溃了。能笑就笑，不能开心，对不起，我没办法开心。突然觉得自己很没用，突然觉得很对不起自己。Girl , be strong . Relationship matters , let god decide . In the end , if both of u are meant to be tgt , both of u will meet again . Tmr's a saturday , sleep tight , rest well , monday be a hypergirl , happygirl and not sickgirl and sadgirl . Ur friends are worried abt u , dun let them worry . Smile like nth happen , try accepting this fact , focus on EOY , and plan for post activities ♥ 

最后还是要回到原地，最后还是要把他忘记，最后还是要放手。痛了，哭了，就振作起来。这一切是注定的。要改也改不了 . I'll be fine one day (: