Pain .. Hen tong

" It reminded me of our memories , it reminded me tht we are no longer friends .. "

我的心很痛 ，真的很痛 ... 友情这种东东 ，会杀死我啊 . 事情一个个慢慢发生 ，心里慢慢地痛 ，痛得我无法在喘气 . U didn't noe tht u hurt me lots . Or should i say thanks for hurting me . Stabbing into my heart is fun . Yea i noe . Thanks for stabbing . Thanks for letting me noe wht is pain . Thanks for making me cry like siao and make my bed wet . Thanks for making me noe tht everything is just a dream and make me wake up and face reality . Friendship this kind of things , it hurts more den relationship . Forgetting him wasn't so difficult . But u , i cant clear our memories in my mind . No one really noe how i feel . Cos no one wanna understand how i feel . Its just like a joke . Im crying almost everytime . And yet no one noe . They doesn't feel the pain . U doesn't feel it too . Its really more den stabbing my heart . Or i should say u are killing me bit by bit .

I deleted u all frm fb .. Sry ... I did regret but it cant be undone . I can only see u all de profile if u bo put privacy . I noe some of u did not put so i can still see but if u put le den ps uh . I actually hope to see u cos seeing u my mood do change . But in the end i didn't see .. I really wanted to be happy but i cant cos this friendship really means alot to me . But it cant change anything . thats it jiu shi thats it liao . " No point crying cos u should learn how to ket it go sometimes " Said by senior . I wanna be happy cos i wish to be happygirl98 . Letting this friendship go , which i think its way too impossible when im trying to make myself feel tht this friendship could still survive . The only little hope i hav , i hope tht it could be true . I didn't realise tht my dream is starting . I noe i dreamt of us quarreling but i didn't realise tht its just so fast ...

 Is this proving me tht my dream is coming true ? I really dk .. Im really scared , scared tht tht this kind of things to happen .. Im feeling low nowadays . Im crying nowdays . I jus wish to hav a shoulder , someone who is willing to stay by side , lending me his shoulders . Comforting me , kiss my tears away and tells me tht everything is alright cos he will hlp me with tht problem . How i wish i hav this kind of boyfriend ..

Getting a chance to see Arron tmr . I hope i could really see .. I hope i wun cry tmr . Im not going to wish abt 11:11 cos its just not true . Even a slight hope also dun hav . Shall end my post here . I hope i wun cry when i gonna sleep