Im feeling emo ! D:

 

" Describing my feelings , leaving in my own world "

Listening to songs which describes my feelings . This will make me feel better cos while listening , im sure i do cry . I noe i will cry . I just to hav friends who really noes me well . Who really wish to noe me as well as possible and not by me telling them . I noe i did change . Last time , by looking at the actions i do , u could noe wht i feel . But i realise its totally wrong . Im no longer tht Serenthia . Im now a girl who nd ppl to noe me really well . U cant noe my mood by my actions now . I nd ppl to ask me . I want ppl to auto noe me more den i tell them . No one is close to me now . And its really no one . I do wonder . Whts the point of me living in this world which doesn't suits me . I noe sleeping cant cure everything . I noe this is call reality . I noe there isn't bffs . I noe no one could noe me really well cos im just so gl tht my mood change forever . I noe happygirl98 doesn't suits me anymore . I noe tht no one really take me as friends . Dun nd to say true friends . Ppl says friends u noe in sec sch will last longer den primary sch but to me , its really fake . I dun hav friends . Really dun hav . Im really living in my own world . Dark clouds are always around me . No rainbow , no sun . Lightnings flashing . Rain started to dripple down . Im just lonelygirl98 . Sadgirl98 . Emogirl98 . 

I can be really hyper . I could be really sad and crying out loud no matter whr i am . I started to shut my world . I noe everyone is leaving my lalaland . I started to cry out loud alone . No comforts , no tissue . Is this call emo ? Or its called moody ? I started to feel odd one out . I just wish god could really end my life . Its really pain . Really really pain . I cant stand it anymore cos im no longer the strong , brave and happy girl . I cant pick myself up when im down . Im really helpless . Wht i noe how to do is to cry over small matters now . I love the tears dropped down . My life doesn't hav a restart button . My life doesn't hav a brand new starting button . My life doesn't hav a happy button . I only can stay in misery . Im hyper this morning , this afternoon . Idk why my mood change so fast . Probably its just me . The new Serenthia tht ppl hate alot . The girl's whose attitude sucks max . The girl who wanted to end her life as soon as possible . And this is the current me . I dun mind ppl to leave my life cos im shutting down my world and shut down myself . cry doesn't works and die will work and its the best way . No one will choose to bother me . No one cares abt me either . 

Thanks for telling me the truth tht i dun hav true friends . I hurt me as wht she hurt  me before . Swee . Thanks for telling me tht fact tht u did not even treat me as good friend . Thanks for hurting me . Thanks for letting me noe wht is reality . I hate u god ! I hate u for making my life so hard tht i lost my spirit . Thanks for making me lost everyone . I hate my life ttm !