一个人 ，明白吗 ？

“ 一个人 ，谁明白 ？” 

小学的我 ，现在的我 ，有变嘛 ？小学时 ，无忧无虑的 ，显得很開心很開心 . 但是现在呢 ？Chat alot with Jiayun just now . It makes me feel really even sad . I missed the days 6/3 is tgt . i suddenly felt really sad especially after i wear tht ring which symbolises our friendship . I dun hav the mood to eat today . Poor me . 

我知道我没她美 . 或许我没她可爱 . 但我还是我 . Im a girl who started to like u due to my dream . Im just a girl who saw her blog and was really heartbroken without reason . I noe i cant compare with her . She is chio . Wht i hav was nth to compare with her . But im still myself . The Serenthia who is a fragile girl frm 14072011 onwards . Im just a girl who is waiting for happiness to arrive . Im just a girl who started to be a guaikia . Im just a girl who is no longer brave any more and its not strong like last time . Im just a girl who doesn't like to be compared with others . If u wanna compare , compare others but not me . Throwing tantrum ? Im not those kind who really throw tantrums . But if im really angry , dun ever try me den . Im a girl who could be hyper easily but meeting problems like beloveds leaving and etc , i cant . Friends are really important to me . And i dun really show it . Jealousy kills despite whether its in relationship or not . Im just a girl who deosn't shows my jealousy easily . Im just a girl who is tough to be understood jus becos of my fucking mood . My mood changes up and down which causes me to be difficult to understand . Everything change , including our personality and all . I guess , i had changed alr too ...

If the smile on my face is really real , probably i dun hav to worry abt problems which are occuring now . Ytd , i dreamt of our friendship . We patched . Relationship is still as close as last time . I noe this is wht i want . But i found it pretty weird . Seeing the ring , wht i tot was actually giving up of this friendship . I dun wish to be like asking ppl to re-enter my world again . Such a important friendship , i decided to give up cos i noe patching this kind of things will not happen . But ytd , i dreamt of patching . Den wht should i do now ? Carry on to hav hopes ? Or should i jus give up like giving up on him . I really dun dare to go places we had went before cos going those places will only make me cry again . I wonder why ppl emo nowadays . Including me . I noe i hav reason to emo but its gonna be like 2 wks le , im still like feeling moody . Probably its really true tht friendship hurts more den relationship .

Jiayun was like moody during lunchtime today . Forgive and forget sometimes is really good . Sometimes , its good to reduce the chances of quarrelling ...