Day 27

Day 27 ---> The friendliest person I knew for only one day


Erm dun hav anyone bah ? Ppl i noe de they gave me the impression of not friendly . LOL .

Today is another tiring day .. Play sports , doing frog jump and pumping .. Tired . Just finish my dinner :D Currently 11:05 pm . I haven finish eating my fruits ! Teeeeeheeeeee . I hate when i wake up and realise it was only a dream . Dreams are all so sweet . Dreams dreamt by me are somehow true . Im just waiting for them to appear in my real life . Patiently waiting , hoping tht they will be true . Patient . I wonder when i hav the patient to wait for them to be true . And sometimes i wonder when i can find true friends and my happiness . Currently , 3 things are bothering me . Friendship , relationship and happiness . I cant find happiness . I cant find someone i love and i cant find true friends . Ppl around me , some are not true firends . Because im friendly , you all will climb over my head . Den im so sorry , im not tht kind of person which enable you to climb over it . Reality hurts isn't it ? Seeing ur best friend betraying you . Never think tht im those kind of ppl who will plead you to be my friends . Im not tht kind of ppl . You wanna leave my world , leave lor . Without you , im fine .

Sometimes i do wonder whether my smile is fack or true ? Im smiling but doesnt mean im happy. Smile and happy is two different things . Im trying to make myself happy . Im trying all ways but thinking of our memories , i feel happy and hurt . When can i forget everything and start a new life ? I tried starting but my new life was just so bored . Probably not starting afresh is just the best solution ♥

Dear 11:11 , life sucks nowdays . I had been thinking of the memories . Lack of sleep , panda eyes coming out :X I love holidays cos i can rest . I love sch because i won't feel this way . Im in holiday mood . I dun feel like going sch . Cause i feel lazy . Feeling so relaxed everyday , with no stress and all . I think of him again . Idk why . He had been appearing everywhere . I think i had  really fall in love with him . I dun wish to get hurt in relationship again . Cause relationship is the one who hurts most .Although simple life like now rocks , but my life still lack of things . I wanted to make it perfect . But it seems so difficult . Nvm , i wun give up . But happiness , can i hav you ?



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