Everything is just a lie ..

" Your extreme good lie " 

If i can choose , i dun wish to stay in the world cos i dun wish to see ppl suffer because of me ... I dun wish to see ppl hating me or saying behind my back ... If its really so difficult , tell me and you can leave from my world ... Everything is disappearing .. I cant see hope .. Im somehow leaving in my own world .. No brightness , no hope .. 

如果时光可以倒流， 很多很多事我想试着去改变， 可惜， 没有如果 ...  

我 不希望每天晚上都流着眼泪 。我不想因为友情而影响我的心情 。但我们曾经是好朋友 ，认识不久我们就变得很好很好 。但到了中学 ， 一切变了... You are no longer who i noe ... Everything is changing ... Including you ... You told me tht our friendship won't end so easily but it was just a lie .. Thats wht you told me . But this is just a lie . You promise me tht you will celebrate with me my bday but it was a lie ... We like the same things but its totally different ... I dun wish to have this ending .. You are the one who ended this friendship . I cant do anything but jus accept the truth . I can only cry at nite , thinking of our memories tgt , thinking of our promises ... Im trying to bluff myself .. Trying to make those promises to come true but i noe i cant ... Its a fact .. I cant change it ... I cant accept the fact . Its really too big for me .. I wish tht our friendship can be like the two of them . Although different sch , but they are so good . But we cant ... You did not tell me the reason .... I noe u might hate me .. But i changed alot .. Srsly ... I noe i change too but not in my attitude in friendship ... Eveyone who appears in my life are important to me .. But everything is disappearing ... I wonder why .. Wht i did ? Why mus i hav this kind of punishment ... 

I wish for 11:11 ... I shall hav an early wish time instead of 11:11 ... 11:11 , i wish tht everything will be fine .. I hope tht i could see hope .. I hope i could see brightness quickly .. I dun wish to leave in my own world .. Its kinda bored .... I dun wish to face relationship thingy too .... I jus dun wan to be alone ... Jus give me friends and a stead . I noe i ask for too much but thats really wht i wish for .. I dun wan the class to be noisy .. I dun wan ppl to suffer because of me .. I hope tht this will come true ... I dun wan to leave in this kind of world again .. Its painful ...