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我開心嗎　？

什麼东西才能譲我開心？我猜想只有他吧。累了，真的很累。快樂呢？我的笑容呢？２０１２，原本好好的，現在不懂爲什麼會變到醬。Can i hack care everything ? Really . No mood for anything now . Afternoon , my mood was still fine . But now , really like shit . My day today was so simple . And yet the one confusing is actually my mood ...  Met Ruiwan , Seok teng at Northpoint just now . Den went to Ler ying's hse to do the script and etc . I today finally drink DOUBLE CHOCOLATE alr ♥ Long time nvr drink le . Miss tht feeling . Tht feeling , those memories , They're meant to fade soon , and i guess im starting to lose things again . ' If you dun lose some things , you won't have the chance to gain ' True indeed . I tot i have nth more to lose , but now is just when i start to lose my things .  

It's not called moving on if you have no reason , It's not called letting go if you didn't have anything in the first place , It's not called forgetting if once you think you've forgotten they are always on your mind . It's not called walking away , if you turn back to take another look . Because everytime you remember those memories , it will always put a smile into your heart. And be glad that once in your life this person made you happy and put colors into your life even if it's just for a while .

  

It`s funny how hello always ends with a goodbye , it`s funny how good memories can start to make you cry .It`s funny how forever never really seems to last , it`s funny how much you`d lose if you forgot about your past . It`s funny how friends can just leave you when you`re down , it`s funny how when you need someone they`re never around . It`s funny how people change and think they`re so much better , it`s funny how many lies can be packed in one "love letter" . It`s funny how people forgive even though they can't forget , it`s funny how one night can contain so much regret . It`s funny how ironic life turns out to be . 

A letter to myself

To the dearest me , stop caring abt peepo who dun care abt u , it doesn't worth . Maybe letting go is the best way , for friendship and crush thingys . They did not even take u in heart , why mus u ? Everything is changing , time change , peepo change . And i guess the best way not to get hurt again is not to care . And its damn hard kay . How i wish i can be happy always , hyper always . No troubles , no moodswings and all . 2012 , pls be good to me . I noe myself . I noe tht i miss all memories vry much . And those memories are mostly either abt cousins , him or abt friendships . 

I always wish tht i can live life to the fullest , having things i wanted especially him . If wishes can come true , give me 5 wishes will do ♥