1 day of 2012 (:

1st day of 2012 , im having a stomach cramp . Pain eh ~ !!! :( My mood wasn't really good frm the start of 2012 , ytd night till now i guess . Ytd night cried , im really trying hard to tell myself not to think too much , in the end fall asleep . This morning , woke up because im having stomach cramp . Den eat finish breakfast went back to sleep again . And my sis woke me up at abt 2 plus to ask me go eat lunch , in the end nvr went back sleep again .

所以現在的我 ，太過缺愛 ，堅強太久 ，哭了？2012年 ，第一個晚上就掉眼涙了 。真的不想去想太多 ，但是真的 ，我很累 。不想堅強下去 。不堅強 ，又被笑說自己很脆弱 。太堅強 ，久了真的會累 。我不再堅強了好嗎 ？Maybe is because of my two cousins again . Infront of them , srsly , i dun have to a strong girl . I got Jiawei to let me depend on , got Jiapeng to depend on , i dun nd to scared cos i got the 2 of them . But after coming back , srsly i have to be strong cos my sis depend on me . I have to be strong cos infront of others , i cannt let them say tht im weak . Everytime in Balai , srsly i can just be the real me , having my smiles thr , happygirl98 , no longer sadgirl98 . They can let me depend on , they can hlp me by letting Stella depend on herself thr and not depending on me . I miss Jiawei's shoulders , his shoulders make me feel tht im protected by him . I miss his shoulders , cos his shoulders will make me feel tht im not alone in the world . I miss his shoulders alot , cos no matter wht happen , he will still lend me his shoulders to let me lean on :D

No matter how much i miss those memories , its still the past . It happened last yr , although its still not long ago . Srsly , hopefully this yr , i can have more smile on my face , more happiness . Less den 1 day , sch reopening . Well , srsly im really not ready for sch . I dun even noe wht to bring :x Goodbye 2011 , Hello 2012 。從今天開始、幫自己一個忙。不再承受身外的目光、不必在意他人的評價、為自己活着。從今天開始、幫自己一個忙。做喜歡的事情、愛最親近的人、拋棄偽裝的面具、不再束縛情感的空間。從今天開始、幫自己一個忙。卸下所有的負擔、忘卻曾經的疼痛、撫平心靈的創傷、讓自己活得輕鬆而充盈。