Boy , imy ♥

So this is the feeling ? Missing someone is actually a torture ? So this time round im serious ? Im confused , really confused . Srsly , im really in holiday mood , thinking of alot alot of things at night and finding solutions to solve my problems , sleeping late at night , looking at stars & moon , refreshing our memories , and i can actually wake up late and feel so damn free at home . And why must time actually past so fast , really vry fast , and my 2 month holiday is gone like this ? 1 more day to 2012 , 4 more days to sch reopen ? I haven pack my bag , or i should say i haven even touch my pencil case and all , and sch is reopening ? Srsly , im not looking forward . My mood's like shit now . Last Fri of 2011 , can't i just enjoy today and tmr before 2011 ends ? My mood's real good these few days or this 1 wk plus after i came back frm Balai . But im now confuse becos of him , the one who make me damn happy , making me relying on him in whtever situation , telling me jokes and making funny actions whenever im somehow down . Can god spare me this time round ? Im really sick of thinking abt relationships ... :(

那一段回憶 ，突然之間 ，對我很重要 。是習慣 ，還是喜歡 ？這個问题挣扎了我很久 ，很久 。那25天 ，真的很快樂 ，很快樂 。是太過依赖他 ，習慣依赖他 ，還是只能依赖他 ？第一次這麼依赖一個人 。依赖一個人的感覺 ，很爽 ，感覺很幸福 。25天 ，早上起来習慣看到他的脸 ，早上起来習慣被他拉去厨房刷牙吃早餐 ，吃完早餐 ，習慣去他們的房間看他們玩電腦 ，有時還會配他們打電動 ，里面笑聲连连 ，有時吵吵闹闹的 。習慣下午被他拉去厨房吃午餐 ，習慣有他陪在我身邊 。一切都是習慣 ，要怎麼改 ？

Everyday , trying to make myself busy , cos i dun wish to think of him . Everyday , trying to make myself getting distracted , cos i dun wish to think of the memories . Smile when thinking , but soon will end with tears dropping . I really miss them alot alot .. :(

想妳們的時候 ，我只能看着照片 ，回想我們的回憶 。現在 ，除了走一步 ，算一步 ，我還能怎樣 ？