因为我知道

如果没有她你还爱我吗 ？我很想知道你的真心话

只觉得以前的我好傻 。为了感情的东东 ，竟然会哭得你死我活 。只想说 ，回来 ，我有长大到 。那一点点 ，当然 ，我也开心 。现在的目标 ，就是在中二时考好成绩 ，想要上快捷班 ，还要争取到上高华的机会 。时间过得很快 。真的很快 。又要回新加坡了 。每年来到这里 ，肯定会有不同的回忆 。每年 ，在这里的点点滴滴 ，或许不是每个人都会拥有的 。很久没看到真正开心的王雅婷了吧 。就在这里 ，我才真正的开心 。因为有我表哥和表弟 ，脸上的笑容也变成真的了 。今年 ，应该回来最久 。记得去年 ，我才回来两个星期 。这次快接近一个月 。去年回来 ，回忆真的很少 。比较喜欢今年 ^^ 什么都不怕 ，只怕的是回去新加坡会哭得很残 。每年都酱 。希望今年不会 。每次打算回来时 ，我都会跟妈妈说我不想回 。结果要回去新加坡时 ，却说不想回去 。人就是酱 。不敢要求太多 ，知足就好 。上天让我玩了一个月 ，让我真正的开心 。一个月也好 。至少有开心到 。多九天 ，幸福的日子就结束了 。

Dec , you are not a bad month . I guess , throughout this yr , the best months are actually April and Dec . At least for this two months , im happy . If actually happiness last for a longer time . Rmb last yr , when my cousins came Singapore , we all had alot of fun . I noe they all dun like Stella , becos of her temper and etc , so im closer with them . When Stella came back during June holidays , Ahwei lent her com . But now , he lend me com more den lending Stella . 在他们心里 ，尤其是在表哥表弟表姐当中 ，我有重要到 。在长辈们的眼里 ，或许我没那么重要 。可是有他们就够了 。没有他们 ，或许每次我回来都没有意义 。就留给大家同样的回忆 ，美好又开心 。他们考试快到了 ，加油 ~~！！！！ 我不希望因为要跟我和妹妹玩 ，结果荒废学业 。

看了 ‘ 那些年 ，我们一起追的女孩 ’ 看了 ，没有哭 。但眼睛红又肿 。没办法在表弟面前哭 。会丢脸 。想说 ，从中我学到了 ，拥有的东西 ，必须珍惜 。等到失去后 ， 后悔也没用 。说是说 ，要做到却很难 。说好要改变自己 ，开学时会有一个新的我 。应该有改变到吧 ？ 有了新目标 ，变得更用功了 ？呵呵 。In order to be motivated , the one who inspire me will be Arron and him ♥ Trying to keep myself busy , just hope that i wun think of him . But in the end , at night or even when im bored and there isn't anyone at home , i will still tot of him . I guess , he's irreplaceable in my heart . I wonder when he will be back . It has been long ever since i think of him just to make myself sleep . Im having fun here , and i wun tot of him when i sleep . But these few days , i have been thinking of him just to make myself sleep . Guess wht ? After watching ' You are the apple of my eyes ' , Im still wondering should i just let god decide everything . Before i come back , my plan is actually dc everything , including him and everything shall just let god decide . And today , im gonna confirm this answer . ‘ 有时 ，真正的喜欢一个人的时候 ，当他拥有幸福时 ，你会祝福他 ，并为他感到高兴 ’ 觉得这句话蛮有道理的 。或许我们俩注定要当一辈子的陌生人吧 。你一定要幸福 ♥ (':

其实我看开了 。有些东西 ，不是自己的 ，就不是 。勉强也没用 。邦得越紧的东西 ，越容易失去 。在乎的太多 ，或许没人会在乎你所做的一切 ，反而还会被嫌烦 。或许看开一切后 ，自己会开心一点 。Sometimes im just tired of my life . I wonder , why i care so much for peepo , and yet they dun give a fucking damn abt it . When im scared to lose them , will they be scared to lose me too ? Im not emo , but im just wondering .

Hopefully , no more emo life . I just a normal girl . Just hope to have a simple and happy life . A smile on my face , just hope that i wun have any fake smile anymore . Im just an ordinary girl , like others , not strong like i used to be . A girl who needs care . A girl who needs a boy to depend on . Sick and tired depending on myself . A girl who actually hope that no one will actually leave her alone when she needs help . A girl who just hate to be alone and being ignored . A girl who believes in fairytales and  hope that her own life will have a happy ending . A girl who wish to have a shoulder to lie on when she's tired . When she's in tears , someone will actually hug her and say that no matter wht happen , i will be with u .  When she's troubled , someone is willing to be her listening ear . And she just wish for peace in her life .