' Forever ' wht is it ?

My mood's like shit . I cried again . No matter how much i tell myself not to cry , tears dropped no matter wht . I tot of the memories we hav tgt for this 1 yr plus . The photos we took this yr . Yes , 1 yr plus , i hope this friendship will still last . We quarreled once , i noe our relationship wun be like before . But i hope it last cos i cant lose someone so important to me ...

Imisshim badly . I miss his face , miss the actions he do . I miss the smile on his face , i miss his everything . 1 day since he left Singapore , im almost dying . The only thing i noe wht to do now is only cry , and cry . I hope he's mine . Imma serious . I hope tht we will hav a chance to be tgt . I guess im struggling again .. Im thinking of forgetting him and her . But my wallpaper is him , and everything seems to be a habit . Missing him , thinking of him before i sleep , thinking of him when i wake up , thinking of him when im not busy , thinking of him almost the whole day . The two , which made me cried most of the yr is him and her . Yes , im thinking of forgetting them now ... Its a struggle for me . I noe i cant forget him . But for her , yes i will try . I hope for the best . I hope tht everything will go fine . I really dun wish to lose this friendship . But imma scared tht it might be a must to lose it ....

I hope everything will be fine . Im scared tht i will cry tmr .... Meeting Zelda tmr . She shall be my counselor tmr . I noe i will cry infront of her . But lucky its her hse , not public . Will be walking past the places we went before . Before i reach , i dun wish to cry . We went to those places tgt . But this time round , im alone . Im trying not to cry . I believe tht sleeping will be fine . 02 10 , imma tired . Update ltr , good morning owls , good nights  earthlings . I hope for a better day tmr ..