Every hour , Every minute , Every seconds .

" 愛上就愛了　痛苦或快樂　都是獲得 "

Continuously , listening to emo songs , lots of thoughts flowing through my mind . My emo mood is back . Words couldn't explain my thoughts , words couldn't explain those feelings . The feeling where peepo dun reply ur msg . The feeling whereby u feel leftout totally . The feeling whereby you're so damn lonely . The feeling where u just wish to sleep everyday and having a thought of dying cos you're no longer scared of tht feeling . The feeling where you just wish to cry out loud , hoping tht the one u love is beside you , lending u his shoulder and quietly , accompanying you and listen to all ur problems .  The feeling where you're dreaming of ur crush when he's just a stranger and u noe tht u can hav him in ur dreams but not in reality . Lots and lots of feeling in my heart now . They're just so fucking damn messy . Telling peepo my problem isn't a good way . I wun feel any better . Friends will only tell me tht im thinking way too much . They do encourage me , they do telling me ways to be happy . You all wun noe how i feel , unless u hav experienced it urself . But a big thank you for being my listening ear . 

Sometimes , i just wish to be alone . Listening to the same song , over and over again ... Im not bored with it . Tired of having this kind of mood , tired of being paranoid . 选择放弃 ，最後能成功嗎 ？选择不顾一切 ，做得到嗎 ？微笑着面对现实 ，现实還會醤残酷嗎 ？