I cry and cry and cry . ihateumax can

" 终于发现自己也会有累的一天.... "

I wish i wun cry but in the end , bcos of him again , i cried . In sch hyper at home sad . Wht is this ? I almost cry in Northpoint today while listening to songs with friends ... I somehow hate my name now ? Cos of the first letter tht me and ur name hav . Idk how long this will last . I cant imagine how i can i survive after all . Six time le . Cried becos of him six time le .. Happygirl98 in sch , having fun , laughing out loud . With friends , smile like dk wht , laugh like a siao zhabor . At home , everything different .

In sch today , bash Weixuan , Boon poh and Robin . Nice (Y) Laughing in sch mostly of the time , its nice . Today went library to study with Jusmin . Shop around Northpoint after tht . Laugh like a siao zhabor . Otw home , saw his peeps . Avoiding them . Idk whether if i succeeded anot , but i guess , they didn't really see me i guess . Saw them , its just like needle poking my heart cos i'll tot of him . Idk how long this will last srsly . I dun wish to loose focus tmr cos im having my chinese oral . I saw my common test results . It sucks max alr . I dun wish to see my EOY results sux ttfc .

These few days mood damn bad liao . Tht stupid bitch come home still nag peepo . Cb . In the end tio slap by  her. Tmd . In the end argue until she nth to say . Ccb . Dun hav the rights to slap me jiu dun slap me . U my ma ? I pui kay . If u got take me as ur daughter den say la hor . Slap slap slap . I noe my face sibei shiok slap cos chubby chubby de . Dun nd jealous la hor . Knn . Limbu no mood u wan try me . Try la . U mai regret la -'-

My eyes damn dry . Cry until so dry and pain . But this is the only method for me to sleep . If not i wun be able to sleep at nite :( 受伤了。只能让时间帮我。如果时间也不能的话，我可以去跳楼了。我尽量不要出现在你面前因为我怕看到你。你或许尽量不要出现在我面前，因为你在躲避我。只想说，躲避不是办法。我在慢慢学着怎样面对现实。不管有多痛，不管有多恐怖。我会学着面对，学怎样让自己看开。

我希望某人不要躲避现实。不管我的猜测是对还是错。我指得就是他 . Tmr oral le . I hope i wun cry before tht . I hope tmr is a successful one . Imma scared actually .. Really scared . I hope nth will happen . Just for once , let me be calmgirl98 , let me finish my oral successfully and get high marks ♥