Nice !

" It too late to realise it when you had lose it" 

Whats the point of saying u will be there for me when we break ? To me , so wht if you are there now ?When i nd you when we are tgt ? Whr u ? U give me broken promise . I decided to let it over cos i noe its really useless . No point remembering it as it will only hurts me more . I finally forget you , i finally forgotten the broken and hurting relationship we once had . I noe i do txt u , and normally wht i txt u was somehow my feelings . But i txt him as well . I wanted both of you to noe my feelings cos one of you say u will be there for me anytime and i believe one of u will be there for me nxt time . Sometimes , i think i relied on you too much . U are my ex and i still rely on you so much . Probably i shouldn't cos no point le . I just hope u wun think so much , tot tht i still like u cos its really impossible alr . U hurt me so much and i took 2 years to fix back my broken heart . Impossible let u hurt again bah ? Although probably u wun but my trust in u no longer is 100% especially after ytd ..

Feel hungry easily nowadays . Pro . Gonna gains lots of weight for sure . Idw be too fat sia . Too fat not nice liao . Too chubby although is cute but not nice . Parents had been nagging me nowadays . Sometimes , its srsly damn fucking irritaiting . Nag and nag and nag . Saying i keep going out and never do homework and revision . Its like i did those when they are not at home . They always tot tht i go out everytime and i hackcare abt my studies . If srsly i hackcare , I wun even care to do my hw . I wun even care to bring my txtbks out to revise when im with my friends . I asked my friends all idk . And yet u told me tht i nvr do my hw and i dun even care abt my work . Quarreled with parents . It seems to be normal nowadays alr . quarrelling with them in this wk is not the first time alr . Since they wanted to quarrel and nag , den i pei them lor . Talk nonsense jiu got .

明明人在线，明明想说话，还要学隐身；
明明很难过，明明很想哭，还要裂嘴笑；
明明很孤单，明明很害怕，还要一个人；
明明想见面，明明很期待，还要去拒绝；
明明心很乱，明明想人陪，还要装沉默；
明明舍不得，明明放不下，还要去放手；
明明在心里，明明很在乎，还要无所谓！

想了解我的 、认识我的就开口跟我说话 . 通过 Facebook 或Sms 都可以因为我不建议 . 我不是主动的人 .  在乎也不会说出来 , 只会隐藏着心情 , 假装我不在乎 . 没有人真的了解我的心情 . 因为我的心情 ，没有一次是乖的 . 舍不得 ，放不下 ，也得放手 . 在我身边 ，朋友们说了解我 ，有真正的了解吗 ？我不懂 . 朋友们说不会背叛我 ，有些最后还是被判了 . 说是永远的朋友 ，结果不是 . 所以你们把我当什么 ？玩具 ？喜欢就玩 ，不喜欢就丢掉 ？利用完了 ，没有价值了就可以扔掉了 . 如果是这样 ，我宁愿我没有你这种朋友 . 要和我当朋友 ，就真心对待我 . 我是人 ，不是玩具 . 不是给你玩弄 ，丢掉的 . 如果靠近我只是想利用我 ，那你滚开吧 . 我不需要你 . 如果我伤心 ，哭了 ，你无法安慰我 ，那算了 . 这种朋友没有也罢 . 如果你不爽我 ，跟我说 ，看我能改吗 . 如果想在我背后捅我一刀 ， 那你选错人了 .  I make sure u will regret backstabbing me .