I really had enough ...

 

" Is it so difficult ? "

Is it so difficult to forgive and forget ? Why mus you all aim for sec 1s ? Whi mus you all aim at ppl you all hate ? Cant you all jus tell them how you feel ? You all say forgive and forget . Of course everyone noe this . But did you all do it ? Say say say . Actions are louder den words . We not 3 years old kids le pls ! We got brain de . We can think . But you all take tht we are like no brains like tht leh . If you all not shuang with us , can tell bo ? Dun act kind hor . You wan act jiu get out off ppl de world . Dun try to irritate them can ? You wan see ppl die uh ?? By tht time vry happy rite . You all not willing jiu dun do luhh hor . Do le its equal to useless . Dun act kind le . I saw ur true colours alr . I regretted knowing you . I regretted telling you all my things . It seems tht you all dun take us as one . Den why mus we ? If you all dun keep ur promises , den why mus we ? We could jus rake up the past again and there wun be any peace . Isn't this better ? Since you all wan do until like tht , we will .你们做初一 ， 我们做十五 . We juniors , dun hav the rights to say anything . Thats why we endure . But ppl will reach the limit de . Dun think tht my temper very good . You all are trying to make me hate you all . I had enough of this kind of thingy le . I dun wish to care abt it le . Since you all wants to see death cases , this will happen soon . 

It seems tht these few days alot of things are happening . Parents , seniors and even friends  . Cant i hav a peaceful life ? Is it so difficult to ? 14 more min . Im turning 13 . But it seems tht i cant be happy . Everything seems to be disappearing ... I dun wish tht to happen but why god hav to do this to me ? My parents ... They might be divorce-ing . Friendship ? Im losing friends ... Seniors ? Im meeting irresponsible seniors . They even break their promise ! Is this how they treat me ? Is it fair ? Im thinking now ... I noe the world is not fair . But why mus it be so unfair ? Is this call secondary life ? If this is , i would rather go back to primary school ... I noe no one treasure me . But wht i hope is someone who treasure or friendship , our parent-relationship and senior/junior relationship ... It seems tht existing on Earth was wrong ... If i noe this is my life , i would choose not to be born . I dun wish to enter a world full of miserables . I dun wish to enter a world with no happiness ... I noe my few besties are trying to give me happiness . Trying to give me hope , trying to shine light into my world but there's a lot of ppl trying to destroy all of them . Pls , i had enough ... Can you all dun bully me like tht ? My heart is srsly broken into pieces ....